GM/Life Fatigue

So yeah.Another fortnight and no more gaming write-ups. Maybe I'll feel more up to running next week but I think I'm losing interest in my D&D campaign. It has been 12 levels and things are getting a bit samey. I can't seem to find ways to make fights new and interesting and with certain players' abysmal luck with dice turning things into a grind it's all been feeling a bit "meh". I suppose I should talk it over more with the other players, but wondering if taking a break and playing something different for a while might be good. Although I'm not sure if I could run another game right now. I still have a (mostly mental) list of ideas for campaigns and one-shots but I doubt I'd get very far prepping them.

See, it's not just D&D I've been getting bored with. It's just about everything. I have to force myself to pick up a book to read. Life's being a bit of a drag. Sure, some bits are good - I have a laugh with the Terror, or a nice night in with J, friends, playing games, drinking cider, watching Spaced, whatever. But it all fades away and I go to bed tired and don't quite fall asleep or wake up several times in the night and realise that the next day is going to be another whole load of housework and killing time.

Tempting to say it would be better if I got a job (or failing that, volunteer work) but I suspect I'd just end up dreading that as "yet another thing" to be tolerated. I just can't seem to shake this negative mindset. And yes, I know the reason I'm like this is "I'm depressed" but that doesn't make it much easier to live with. The meds help me get out of bed in the morning and mean I maybe only cry once or twice a week instead of once or twice a day, and I am so far managing to get a modicum of exercise/outsideyness a day but I still need "a project" to focus on. I think. But whenever I start one, I get bored within a few days and once I get bored I start hating to have to do things. And with housework and exercise and job hunting I can just ignore the hating it and think "but I have to", that's not so easy with stuff that's supposed to be enjoyable like gaming or reading or writing.

But hey, I cope. I'm mostly slacking off and watching TV/DVDs/iPlayer once housework is finished. Forcing myself to find things I might vaguely find interesting or funny and carrying on reading my way through our collection of Mage: the Ascension books. I'll live. At some point I'll have to stop slacking off and get a job or something but I'll worry about that when I get there.

The Campaign With No Name - Nov 3rd

The party paused only briefly before following the mist-form vampire lord through the doors to the innermost chamber. There, they were taunted by what appeared to be a corpse on a throne, which exploded as soon as it was attacked. They were attacked by some battle wights and a human figure at the back of the room cast spells and raised vampire minions which were shot to pieces or died on the end of the Warlord's spear. The vampire lord just lurked in a corner.

As they were fairly worn out from the previous battle, it took them longer than expected to deal with the wights and the necromancer, and suffered quite a bit of damage but had just enough healing to keep going. Once they finished with those, they turned their attention back to the vampire who remained in mist form and tried to bargain with them before (foolishly) turning solid again and throwing himself on their mercy. They quickly ended his (un)life.

OC comments - After quite a break we decided to play D&D again. It ended early because I was getting tired though, and as they were out of dailies/encounter powers the fight was beginning to drag.

Quote of the session
C: "Unfortunately for him, my spear's name is Mercy."