Because there's things I want to say but nobody needs to hear. Because I want to keep smiling and carrying on like it's all ok and then maybe it will be. Because I know the thing to do to break habits and form new ones but just can't make myself do it. Because the only way that has ever stopped this before would be giving up too much. Because there is a disconnect between my feelings and my rational thoughts and the feelings win every time.
Because I'm tired and I know tomorrow I'll get up and try all over again but right now I really don't want to.
